Good morning everyone.
I’m having a bit of a low day. We were up in the night with a crying Sophie and now she’s exhausted, I’m exhausted, and I have sent an exhausted husband to work as well.
I feel overwhelmed and guilty for not having enough patience, for not being strong enough to protect my husband from sleepless nights, and for not really knowing how to help my daughter or what the matter is. I feel weak and inferior compared to other mums who run businesses, study for degrees, home school their children, and still get dinner on the table.
Today, I saw something new in it that spoke to me.
I’ve always read those words negatively, as in, the writer wants to run away from God and finds he cannot, even though he tries. Today, God gave me a positive message: wherever I go and whatever I do, God’s Spirit will be with me. In my tiredness, frustration, and feelings of failure, He is with me.
God knows the state of my heart and knows all my worries, anxieties, and emotions. He is moulding me and using all the circumstances, upsets, and joys of my life as lessons to shape my character and to help me understand His goodness and grace. His way is the way everlasting.
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.